Abide

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Now...abide in Him, so that when He appears, we may have confidence....

-1 John 2:28 (NASB)

This poem came right after I finished writing yesterday's post.  (All the words in bold are words for weight or waiting.)

Waiting for something.

Some big, sweeping gesture,

Or a NEWSFLASH! THIS IS THE ANSWER.

And the longer I wait,

The heavier the weight of wondering -- 

Where does this road lead? --

Until I am buried beneath

The clock as it ticks away the seconds,

Minutes, hours, days.

Tarrying here, waiting for clarity,

To know the sum total of choices

That will get me wherever I'm trying to go.

And the gravity of my fear
Only makes me linger in this place even longer.

Bearing this heavy burden,

Yet knowing it isn't mine to carry.

NEWSFLASH!

I am not in control,

And the answer is right here

All the time:

The still, small voice

Saying,

"Abide in Me."

What is the use in trying to arrange my own future just so?

When did I get it in my head

That my word holds any authority

Apart from Your will?

You are my anchor.

You are the one who lifts my self-assigned pressures

And replaces them with rest.

And so I wait;

I eagerly expect Your perfect peace to wash over me.

And I watch for Your guiding words;

I hold still, until You say go.

And in hindsight, don't I always see Your impact

On every day, hour, minute, and second?

Thank You for the magnitude of Your grace.