Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Messy, Busy, Crazy, Good...Life.

Between now and the middle of July, we have exactly TWO weekends that we don't have something going on (yet).



Life is so full right now, and I love it. Everything we have going on is good stuff, and most of it is stuff we really can't miss out on. It's not like I purposely set out to book my entire life solid for the next three months. We've got two weddings (one in HAWAII!), two sets of bachelor/bachelorette parties (one in VEGAS!), a family trip to Arizona (THIS WEEKEND!), our yearly Costa Mesa Scottish games, and a visit to the bay area to see my grandma. None of those are really miss-able events, and I am ridiculously excited for every single one.

But I'm also already tired just thinking about this go-go-go season of life. Somehow I must learn to prioritize and make time for quiet, stillness, Jesus, and quality time with my husband. Oh and also rest and exercise, you know, so I can look GOOD and AWAKE on each of these adventures.

It seems like 2014 has become the Year of Everything.

Travel. Family. Exploration. Challenges. Transition. Adventure. Growth. Uncertainty. Reassurance.

I started writing this post a couple of days ago, and since then, I've had a bit of a physical/mental/emotional panic attack. Do we think it's a coincidence that it happened after I began to map out the coming months of my life?

Yeahhhh...about that.

So I'm taking deep breaths, praying (a lot more frequently than I have been lately) for overwhelming peace and comfort, and trusting that God will see us through each of these next many crazy weekends. But I really want to write MORE and keep a better record of these things, because so much has ALREADY happened this year that is fading into the dark corners of my memory. I gotta somehow fit BLOG ABOUT IT ALL in the middle of the Doing and the Resting and the Being.

And somehow I have to get better at saying no to things.

It's not so much about feeling guilty about saying no to other people. I usually don't have an issue with that. It's more about me WANTING to do so many things (ALL of the things, remember?) and wishing I could make them all happen and STUBBORNLY DECIDING I can make them all happen.

Balance. I don't have it.

(Except if you put me on top of a Bosu ball. I'm getting pretty good at that.)

Ramble ramble. Unedited, not so structured, real thoughts from this person who used to be a blogger.

More soon...ish. Probably.