Between now and the middle of July, we have exactly TWO weekends that we don't have something going on (yet).
Life is so full right now, and I love it. Everything we have going on is good stuff, and most of it is stuff we really can't miss out on. It's not like I purposely set out to book my entire life solid for the next three months. We've got two weddings (one in HAWAII!), two sets of bachelor/bachelorette parties (one in VEGAS!), a family trip to Arizona (THIS WEEKEND!), our yearly Costa Mesa Scottish games, and a visit to the bay area to see my grandma. None of those are really miss-able events, and I am ridiculously excited for every single one.
But I'm also already tired just thinking about this go-go-go season of life. Somehow I must learn to prioritize and make time for quiet, stillness, Jesus, and quality time with my husband. Oh and also rest and exercise, you know, so I can look GOOD and AWAKE on each of these adventures.
It seems like 2014 has become the Year of Everything.
Travel. Family. Exploration. Challenges. Transition. Adventure. Growth. Uncertainty. Reassurance.
I started writing this post a couple of days ago, and since then, I've had a bit of a physical/mental/emotional panic attack. Do we think it's a coincidence that it happened after I began to map out the coming months of my life?
So I'm taking deep breaths, praying (a lot more frequently than I have been lately) for overwhelming peace and comfort, and trusting that God will see us through each of these next many crazy weekends. But I really want to write MORE and keep a better record of these things, because so much has ALREADY happened this year that is fading into the dark corners of my memory. I gotta somehow fit BLOG ABOUT IT ALL in the middle of the Doing and the Resting and the Being.
And somehow I have to get better at saying no to things.
It's not so much about feeling guilty about saying no to other people. I usually don't have an issue with that. It's more about me WANTING to do so many things (ALL of the things, remember?) and wishing I could make them all happen and STUBBORNLY DECIDING I can make them all happen.
Balance. I don't have it.
(Except if you put me on top of a Bosu ball. I'm getting pretty good at that.)
Ramble ramble. Unedited, not so structured, real thoughts from this person who used to be a blogger.
More soon...ish. Probably.